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11 July 2006 @ 10:24 am
This is my last post. I'm leaving this journal. I'm going to start a new one that doesnt have her in it anywhere. I cant do this. I knew it was all my fault and it is. It fucking is. Bye guys.
ziba04ziba04 on July 11th, 2006 02:52 pm (UTC)
i hope you add me to whatever new journal you have! dont go! this is your life, you cant run away from it. you can start over but you cant erase your past.
jessoleil21 on July 11th, 2006 03:09 pm (UTC)
Make sure to add me?
jamielynn0722jamielynn0722 on July 11th, 2006 03:10 pm (UTC)
DON'T Leave just write her out of it!!!
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jamielynn0722jamielynn0722 on July 11th, 2006 03:33 pm (UTC)
No I don't know you and I did not say anything about you. I was simplying telling her that just cuz it is one person not making her happy does not mean the rest of us can't. If you make her sad then she should not have you in her life... plain and simple.. Nothing againest you personally. I would tell that to you if it was her making you unhappy!!
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jamielynn0722jamielynn0722 on July 12th, 2006 05:33 pm (UTC)
i think she thought I was being mean to her!!
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jamielynn0722jamielynn0722 on July 12th, 2006 05:37 pm (UTC)
No idea.. I don't know her.. i just know what I have heard... Maybe so!!
2rulyoutrageous on July 12th, 2006 07:32 pm (UTC)
I personally think it's crazy that you think you know how I am, or who I am. All you are basing your opinion off of are Nic's posts that aren't completely true. If you want to come read my side you are more than welcome. I'm not full of myself by any means, just tired of people who don't even know me putting me down. I've been reading Nic's posts about me this whole time and watching the way people talk about me without saying a word. Well not anymore. Nic and I are in the process of making amends. Though, we both have some grudges to let go of that's for sure. We have both fucked up in our own ways here and neither of us is single handedly responsible.

icon love btw. That's all.
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Bellehbrittmarie on July 11th, 2006 04:08 pm (UTC)
well; even though you're leaving this one. i hope you'll add me to the next one. :D
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 04:48 pm (UTC)
of course ill readd you, heres the new sn too :) I'm working on fixing it up now
luvz_2_act on July 11th, 2006 04:44 pm (UTC)
will you add me to your new journal?
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 04:47 pm (UTC)
yes, heres the sn :) ill add you right now, im stil putting it together
★Ashley Munster★: Creepy treedevious_angel13 on July 11th, 2006 06:06 pm (UTC)
good idea hun..i think that'll help a lot. a fresh new start :)
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 06:11 pm (UTC)
I feel alot better now, trying to get my new journal looking pretty and how I want it, you've been added to it too btw. I hope I'm doing the right thing, I think I am.
★Ashley Munster★: Moviecoverdevious_angel13 on July 11th, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC)
good! :) and thank you :D i added you back :) and i think you are doing the right thing
Victoria: qaf  Melanie and Lindseybikucha on July 11th, 2006 06:12 pm (UTC)
i know I'm new but I hope I can get an add :)
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 06:19 pm (UTC)
Thank god you asked, I was praying you would. I wanted you on there more than anyone. I probably sound crazy, lol. I missed you yesterday though. I guess cause you can relate to me. You will definatly be added.
angelz14228angelz14228 on July 11th, 2006 06:16 pm (UTC)
I added your new journal. I hope that you dont mind? I am sure that everything will work out. It may be hard right now, but you have precious kids that need you in there lifes. We(LJ friends) are here to offer you the best support that we can. Weither or not this someone will remain in your life is up to you! No one else but you. Some people may not like it, but tuff. You are your own woman. Things could be alot worse (doesnt seem like it at the moment). As a mom you know what i mean (at least i hope you do!). We are here for you!
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 06:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks, of course I'll add you :) I hate doing this but I know I have to right now, for my own sanity. Maybe when I'm whole again I can have her back as a friend, if its not too late, but right now I just cant do it. It hurts to much. Its like a constant reminder of how bad I fucked up and it kills me.
angelz14228angelz14228 on July 11th, 2006 06:37 pm (UTC)
I am not trying to sound mean here at all. But it cant be just your fault. There was two people! You have some part to blame and she does too! You shouldnt be putting yourself down like this. Maybe things were suppose to happen like this? There could be another "best friend" waiting out there for you who is 100% better and doesnt make you hurt.
You have to do whatever it is that is going to make you feel better inside. You have to take some "you" time. Figure out what you want. Right now you feel that you might need her, and you cant live without her. Just take some time relax, do what you enjoy most! You might find out that you are the one that doesnt want her back?!?!? Than she will be the one that is sorry for what she has done, and realize that it wasnt just you, it was her too.
hardcoregirl on July 11th, 2006 07:34 pm (UTC)
I have a feeling this won't be the last we hear of "her" though (not saying I don't want to, but she's a big part of your life I can't imagine you not talking to her anymore). Add me so I can keep up with the only sane Christensen besides D.
ashley: end todayautumnfallsdown on July 11th, 2006 07:54 pm (UTC)
May I add your new username?
piecesofmoi: bffpiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 10:03 pm (UTC)
Of course sweetie :) I need my online friends now more than ever.
ashleyautumnfallsdown on July 11th, 2006 10:08 pm (UTC)
What is it?
piecesofmoi: rainbow britepiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 10:10 pm (UTC)
the one im using right now lol
ashleyautumnfallsdown on July 11th, 2006 10:18 pm (UTC)
haha okay sorry bout that!
Salliems_bbygrl on July 11th, 2006 10:03 pm (UTC)
Oh, I hope you'll keep me around. I think you're wonderful no matter what happens. <3
piecesofmoi: blue fairypiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 10:06 pm (UTC)
Aww hi :) I had cut you awhile ago cause I thought you were gone from lj land, now I feel bad :( But if you want to be on my new blog I'll definatly add you!!
Salliems_bbygrl on July 13th, 2006 04:46 pm (UTC)
Nope, I was just away from LJ life visiting the family...lol. Much love!
poohbaby: uspoohbaby on July 11th, 2006 10:28 pm (UTC)
will you please add me to your new journal? if not i understand :(
piecesofmoi: rainbow britepiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 10:33 pm (UTC)
If you want to be on it, sure. I didnt know if you still wanted to be my friend, since you just erased your old one with an explanation too. Plus me and Ashly arent talking anymore, she probably doesnt know that yet, but I saw a comment she left on Liza's blog about me and it pissed me off a lot so I'm just not talking to her right now. :( I know you all are good friends though so I understand if you dont want to talk to me anymore because of that. If you want to be on here though, I would love to still have you, just let me know.
poohbabypoohbaby on July 12th, 2006 10:41 am (UTC)
*hugs* i DO still want to read your journal and get to know you better! I'd still love to come see you this summer too (even if it's without ashly!)
piecesofmoi: rainbow britepiecesofmoi on July 12th, 2006 10:42 am (UTC)
Great, thats awesome, I'll definatly add you back then. Thanks :)
icebean on July 11th, 2006 10:35 pm (UTC)
If you ever need/want to hang out, you know where to find me. :)
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 11th, 2006 10:38 pm (UTC)
Thanks :) I'll add you on my new blog if you want. This is the sn for it, duh, lol. I would love to go out with you and your friends sometime but I am very shy :( It sucks. I guess I need to get over that if I'm ever gonna make new friends, lol.
Derek Jeter's Future Scandalpayoffpitch on July 12th, 2006 02:44 am (UTC)

Aw, I hope you let me in your new journal.
piecesofmoi: cupcakepiecesofmoi on July 12th, 2006 03:18 am (UTC)
You know you were one of the first added :)
Derek Jeter's Future Scandalpayoffpitch on July 12th, 2006 03:20 am (UTC)

I feel special
piecesofmoi: daddys worst nightmarepiecesofmoi on July 12th, 2006 03:20 am (UTC)
I dont wanna sign back into the old username to comment back to you, but yes, friends with benefits are highly sought after ;) I guess I should have added that in the want ad, benefits readily available upon request lol
poppyzdark26poppyzdark26 on July 12th, 2006 01:29 pm (UTC)
awww i'm going to miss you. add me to your new one please:( don't make me beg:(
piecesofmoi: blue fairypiecesofmoi on July 12th, 2006 01:43 pm (UTC)
Sure :) Any of my new friends that ask are getting added, all it takes is interest in me and I don't mind at all to switch you over.
hardcoregirl on July 12th, 2006 05:47 pm (UTC)
There's been a lack of Nicc journal reading in my workday. you need to add me. get on that. thanks.
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piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 17th, 2006 03:35 am (UTC)
Sure :)
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princessdrake on July 18th, 2006 11:46 pm (UTC)
Well damn, I'm late getting on the bandwagon here. I'm just now trying to catch up with everyone and I was wondering what happened because I hadn't seen any entries by you in my friends list. I hope you'll add me, as I'd like to keep in touch!!
piecesofmoipiecesofmoi on July 24th, 2006 06:02 am (UTC)
Sorry Ive been on vacation but sure you can come to my new blog :)